I stay up just late enough until I am just exhausted enough that I can fall into my bed and sink into immediate slumber. Because I can’t stand lying in a bed in a dark room alone with just my thoughts for so many hours and hours.
"I opened my mouth, almost said something. Almost. The rest of my life might have turned out differently if I had. But I didn’t."
the main thing i hate about christmas is the fact i am too poor to buy lovely gifts for all the sweet people in my life that deserve them
I need someone who will do this for me. On my worst days when I’m feeling depressed and like I don’t want to do anything. I want him to bathe me and dress me and just take me somewhere. Anywhere. I need someone to believe in me and care for me when I can’t be that for myself.
I want a relationship or even just a friendship like that.
I’m lucky enough to have a friendship like that